I myself cannot say I have had a real best friend my most of my life, not from the block in my childhood, definitely not a neighbor, some friends in school nothing special, not even college. I've made one friend online in some virtual fantasy game world. For 6 years since starting the game when it came out we played together. I actually did consider her my best friend despite not ever meeting her in person and only hearing her voice once the entire 6 years I knew her. I had already learned she was battling cancer which scared me on a daily that I would inevitably lose her one day. Then one day she tells me she's now gone under remission and has practically “won the battle” I rejoiced, I wouldn’t be losing her after all, she was here to stay. Fast forward some time after and things all of sudden took a sharp turn for the worst. She grew ill again and now losing strength every passing day. The doctors told her the worst thing I ever had to learn of her condition. She was terminally ill and had about a month to live. Hearing news of this was the equivalent of stab to the heart. I've seen pictures of her before, we finally heard each others voices after years of knowing each other but none of it was to last. She had a month to live and I could not even communicate with her much with the exception of her brother delivering messages between us. I wrote to her one final message telling her how much I loved her and always will. Thanks to the efforts of her brother I was able to send and print it for her to see. It's all I could do being thousands of miles away. In the end my friend did pass away and it was the most hurtful loss I have ever felt. I even admit, I've lost family and pets before and even that wasn't as painful as losing the one true friend I had. It's not easy explaining to others my best friend was just a penpal in an online video game. I'm not looking to replace my late friend by any means but I definetly miss having that person to talk to any time you know?
One day I will find the one true best friend and one which I hope will stick around for the long run :)
